Every day I begin to realize how insignificant my life is, but at the same time how important it can be. I know that this seems confusing, but I think it is a part of growing up and realizing that the world actually does not revolve around oneself. I’ve noticed this rather monotonous robot sort of array around myself, and others whom I cherish and do not cherish as much. If you can imagine a huge robot factory, then you can imagine my city. Every where I go its like people are constantly doing everything, but nothing at the same time. People are on the road going places, but never reaching the destination that they so long to reach. So many times in life people just do without thinking, and then after the fact they realize that what they have done means nothing in the context of an eternal destiny. My life is small. My brain is far less intelligent than many of my peers. I am not as calculated as I wish I were. I am dull on certain subjects, and I don’t know nearly as much as I would like to know. I am a confident woman, smart, nice, loving, but still my overall worth is insignificant unless my life potential is actually fulfilled. Without a purpose and a direction one can find themselves wandering to and fro in a world that has everything, but nothing to offer. Without a mission and a vision it is true that we fail, falter, and find ourselves wanting more and more of what we do not need but so desperately want. And so I am puzzled by this paradox. My life is insignificant, but very important. In one context I am dispensable, but in another context I am uniquely priceless and entirely desirable. How can this be? It’s because without God my life is absolutely nothing. My life without God’s purpose and direction is obsolete and dispensable, because at that point I am simply “flesh.” Without God’s Spirit I am useless and insignificant. But, with God I am critically important in the building of the kingdom of God. God knows our worth, and to him we are worth his birth, death, burial, and resurrection. Now when you come to this realization there are a few things that you can or could do. One, you could become so supremely confident in your own abilities, that you fail because of your pride and arrogance. Two, you could become almost too humble in a sense to where you do nothing with your life, because you have no confidence. Three, (which I think is the preferable route) you understand this fine balance and you are humble and confident, allowing yourself to develop into your full potential. Too many times you see people around you that either are too arrogant or too dull. People can become boring, because they copy each other. People almost always follow tradition, which can be one of the worst detractors for finding the truth. Most people are predictable, and they almost always do things in a routinely manner, so that you will always know what is going on. When you hear people say “Get out of the Box,” I am not certain that this ever really happens for the majority of people. People wake up, go to work, eat, exercise, sleep, and then live this all again day after day after day. People do not and cannot change any of this without God. I am certain that without God, this devastating cycle of boring predictability only becomes the more present and controlling. So when you do find someone that is above or below the norm, they are strikingly interesting. The weird, stupid, social misfits, abnormally behaved, psychotic, and others who do not fit into the mold become our stars and idols. This theory is further supported by all of our movie stars and abnormal politicians that lead our country. Most of the people in the News are weird. What makes headlines? (A man murdering tons of people over the Christmas Holiday claiming to be some sort of Killing Santa) People want to hear about people who have stepped out of the box. The problem: Stepping onto water only works when your eyes are completely focused on Jesus Christ. Stepping out of the ship without God only causes devastation and absolute chaos. So what is my point? My point is that as humans we have to find God. As Christians we have to have a balance. Our confidence must be in God, because if it is misplaced in self we will fail. If our confidence is placed within and upon this world we live in, and the things which occupy this world, then it will fade. The only real sense of accomplishment is acquired through diligent faithfulness towards pursuing God’s purpose in our life, accompanied with the continual process of walking with God. I conclude with a few personal remarks. I am confident, but only confident in God and his perfect ability to work through my insignificant life which is actually quite important. I want to be humble to the point where I know that I must have balance and that within that balance I can and will fulfill the calling and destiny that God has placed upon my life. Furthermore, if for some reason I should ever be more known than I already am today by the masses I am being prepared for the cost and price of being known. But, in the same manner, if I should never be known by the masses, than this balance prepares me for the life I will know. And so in some respects I wish to be known, but in other respects I wish to be hidden. In some times I wish to speak, but in others I hope for silence. In all things I wish to find balance, so that at the end of my life and the beginning of my eternity I may be justly able to say that the course or the race which I undertook was for the Cause of Christ, and that I obtained my purpose and mission and effectively ministered to those who I should have ministered unto. And that through pain, tears, joy, happiness, love, peace, mercy, and many of the other gifts of God I did what I could because I knew that my life was insignificant, but at the same time priceless and important. Please do not be fooled. Your life, if given to the right cause can bring such great rewards to you and to others. With God, you can be what he wants you to be. Without Him, everything is nothing, and nothing becomes the everything. So let this small realization sink in if you find that you are hungry for growth.
The Important Insignificant
Rev. Crystal December 26, 2008 0 comments
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About The Author Rev. Crystal Rev. Crystal Schmalz is a licensed minister in the United Pentecostal Church International, holds a Master of Divinity degree from Urshan Graduate School of Theology, and a Bachelor of Arts in Interdisciplinary Humanities and History from Michigan State University. Crystal has served as a staff chaplain at Barnes Jewish Hospital, has completed five units of Clinical Pastoral Education, and is a member of ACPE. She served as a ministry staff leader for ACMNP in Yellowstone National Park and enjoys the beauty of God’s creation. She served on staff at Life Christian Church pastored by David Stephens doing outreach, guest coordination, youth leadership, Sunday school, and music ministry. She currently attends New Life Center pastored by Garry Tracy, and is involved in teaching Sunday school, preaching at nursing homes, teaching Bible Studies, and helping people connect to God and community. Crystal loves to spend time with her husband Luke, and her hobbies include writing, “thrifting,” eating ice cream, and playing Settlers of Catan and Scrabble with friends and family.
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